It’s gonna hurt but it heals too August 17, 2008

It’s been the longest winter without you
I didn’t know where to turn to
See somehow I can’t forget you
After all that we’ve been through

Going coming thought I heard a knock
Who’s there no one
Thinking that I deserve it
Now I realise that I really didn’t know
If you didn’t notice you mean everything
Quickly I’m learning to love again
All I know is I’ma be ok

Thought I couldn’t live without you
It’s gonna hurt when it heals too
It’ll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I’m gonna smile cause I deserve to
It’ll all get better in time

I couldn’t turn on the TV
Without something there to remind me
Was it all that easy
To just put aside your feelings

If I’m dreaming don’t wanna laugh
Hurt my feelings but that’s the path
I believe in
And I know that time will heal it
If you didn’t notice boy you meant everything
Quickly I’m learning to love again
All I know is I’ma be ok

Thought I couldn’t live without you
It’s gonna hurt when it heals too
It’ll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I’m gonna smile cause I deserve to
It’ll all get better in time

Since there’s no more you and me
It’s time I let you go
So I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is I’ll be fine without you
Yes I will

Thought I couldn’t live without you
It’s gonna hurt when it heals too
It’ll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I’m gonna smile cause I deserve to
It’ll all get better in time

Nobody August 17, 2008

She smiled in a big way
The way a girl like that smiles
When the world is hers
She held your eyes
Out in the breezeway
Down by the shore
In a lazy summer

She pulled you in
And she bit your lip
She made you hers
She looked deep into you as you lay together
Quiet in the grasp of dusk and summer

But you’ve already lost
But you’ve already lost
But you’ve already lost
When you only had barely enough to hang on

She combed your hair
She kissed your teeth
She made you better than you’ve been before
She told you bad things
You wish you can change
In a lazy summer

And she told you laughing
Down to her core
So she would not cry
As she lay in your lap
She said, “nobody here can live forever…
Quiet in the grasp of dusk and summer”

But you’ve already lost
But you’ve already lost
But you’ve already lost
When you only had barely enough to hang on

She said,”no one is alone the way you’re all alone”
And you held her looser than you would have
If you ever could have known
Some things tie your life together
Slender threads and things to treasure
Days like that should last and last and last

But you’ve already lost
But you’ve already lost
But you’ve already lost
When you only have barely enough of her to hang on
Hang on

Leaving An Unreal World :) August 17, 2008

For where I’ve been living in recently,

Honey, I’m leaving. It took over my mind too much. No such an unreal thing deserves that. It wasn’t about you, nor anyone else. It’s about me and my circumstances of thoughts. I always need time, and more time to get over things here. And that’s what I don’t and won’t have anymore. I’m afraid, I can’t live forever in a fiction scene. And I can’t sacrifice something real for something unreal. No one can.

I was happy, I was sad, I loved, I laughed, I lived here. Not that easy to leave, but I am considering to. Because everything gets out of track. Because everything is looking forward to blowing my mind up. Because I can’t stand being treated in some particular ways continuously.

One thing again, I really love everyone with me here. Real, or not.

Honey,

Nobody here can live forever quiet in the grasp of dusk and summer.

Sorry for making you mine, sorry for loving you.

But I do.

Goodbye

last night talk August 10, 2008

He : you dating him now?
Me : no
Me : not yet
He :
He : aw
Me : why?
He : never mind
He : take care
Me : why wouldnt you say a thing?
He : what’s left for me to say?
Me : everything you want to
Me : except if you dont want to speak with me
He : doesn’t matter what I wanna say
He : you got over me and in love with somebody else so easy Im happy for you
He : I wish I could
Me : thanks
Me : how are you?
He : im great
He : ultra good
He : super fine
He : and I know you’re better
Me : good
He : yes
Me : hehe
He : I can still feel you
Me : I’m happy
He : I know
He : that’s what you feel when you’re drunk of love
He : when the world belongs to only you both and he gets you flying over the rainbows
Me : too early to judge that
He : so is he your first love?;)
Me : who?
He : who else you might have loved?:o
Me : my mum and dad:p
He : lol
He : drama
Me : queens
He : I hate them :s
Me : I know
He : I dont like the way they act and fake things
Me : I know
He : your one too eh?:p
Me : you know me, you decide on that by yourself
He : a true player and a drama queen can never patch up
Me : I wonder what a true player is
He : a true player is a mystery himself, it’s not about how many gfs he has
He : the one keeps you wondering
Me : I’ve never met any players then
He : good for you
He : I know every instinct
He : but I’m not a player anymore
Me : why not?
He : dont know, bored
Me : when did you retire? Before or after?:p
He : hehe
He : I’m out
He : take care
Me : take care
He is offline